Awake..

Hello friends.



First off.. Thank you for all the kind words not only on facebook and in emails and texts.. I woke up today from my ex husband calling me around 5 am.. He also called Scott too..



O-well.. Wonder what he thought I was going to say.. I am in no way feeling better today. I was pretty disappointed to wake up and realize that this was not a dream.. I knew since Saturday that her hair was cut. I was told it was her shoulders and I thought it was probably a cute hair cut. I had asked since Saturday from a picture from Brittany and she would not send it.. Now I know why.. Finally she wanted me to send her a picture of Baby Ashlynn so I told her to send me one of her hair first and she did.. I just about fell over. Its horrible. She is a beautiful little girl and it will grow back out but what really hurts is she has people in her life that would do that to her. I am hurt and angry.. My mom, and Scott are also upset too. Scott got a call from my step mom saying she had nothing to do with it and I will say.. I doubt she did. But she would have just went along with it. Sorry Alice.. We don't have to pretend do we? You have been mean to me since I was 12 years old. You think I wouldn't remember how you treated me? The things you said? So yea.. I kinda tossed you in the pot with the other assholes. Maybe if you had a child, you would understand how important self confidence is.. how important it is to trust your family.. and Brittany just got butchered up thanks to her father and my father. Thinking about I doubt sent her to whom ever without intentions of her hair getting butchered. But because of those 2 idiots.. my daughter looks like a boy and knows that her own dad and grampa helped do this to her.



Her hair will grow out.. in years.. and all will be well but what Brittany will remember is..



HOW THEY MADE HER FEEL.. That will be what stays with her forever. Along with how the other kids at school MADE HER FEEL.. I am amazed that this happened..I knew my ex husband was a dumbass but being so cruel to her...I would not have imagined. I feel so bad that I brought that kind of person into her life. I couldn't even protect her from them. I feel horrible..and my pain and anger is not going to go away towards the people who did this to my child.. I am sorry Brittany.. I love you very much and we will make it better.



Today I have to head out to do that community service for a few hours. Not wanting any part of that but maybe it will help take things off my mind.



Btw.. Scott has been nothing but kind and understanding. He told me that she is beautiful no matter what and he tried really hard to calm me down. As did mom.. but she was really was upset really bad too. What gets me is how no one else is upset at what that asshole did to her! I think my dad should go over there and hit him in the mouth..that's what I think should happen.. If I could punch harder I would beat the shit out of him.



I hope your day is better than mine.. and better than my daughters day. I need to have a long talk with her tonight sometime. I am just going to make her feel loved and let her know we will get through this and it will be ok.



Off to get cleaned up..



K Jaggers

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